I have been reading books since I can remember and watching television since about the same time. I am exposed to all things lovey-dovey, and then some. But what is it to fall in love? A cliche question, but a question, and one that can never be easily answered, none the less. As infuriating as it sounds, I understand that not all love is the same and not everyone feels and acts the same when they are in love. That is the bloody damn reason why there is no fixed answer for my very first question.
But I've thought about what love is. And we are animals, born onto this earth to survive. They say Love makes the world go round. Bullshit. If all humans died and there is no love the world would be so much better without us. It'll thrive, without those pesky little beings ruining all its beauty. Love, is just what humans make everything to be, a complicated and overly-exagerated mode of survival. It is just protectiveness in a human form. Very, very fierce protectiveness, made confusing by the thing we call the human brain. If I were to explain it thoroughly, it would be too long and knowing me, repititive. So go figure and think yourself.
But anyway, I think I'm off-track already. I mean to ask, "What would it feel like to be in love?" After reading so much, watching so much, Love is never defined. Well... actually it is in literature and all its cliches. But I've read the cliches, and all that goes against the cliches that they are being cliches, and I wonder in cliche, 'Would it feel like that? Would I really be so in love with someone that I'll not think of what other people think? Would I really be willing to fight for this person and sacrifice my life for him/her?' (Notice I use both genders with my acceptence of homosexuality. No, not acceptance meaning that I am one. If I liked a female, believe me, those reading would be the first to know.)
But I've thought about what love is. And we are animals, born onto this earth to survive. They say Love makes the world go round. Bullshit. If all humans died and there is no love the world would be so much better without us. It'll thrive, without those pesky little beings ruining all its beauty. Love, is just what humans make everything to be, a complicated and overly-exagerated mode of survival. It is just protectiveness in a human form. Very, very fierce protectiveness, made confusing by the thing we call the human brain. If I were to explain it thoroughly, it would be too long and knowing me, repititive. So go figure and think yourself.
But anyway, I think I'm off-track already. I mean to ask, "What would it feel like to be in love?" After reading so much, watching so much, Love is never defined. Well... actually it is in literature and all its cliches. But I've read the cliches, and all that goes against the cliches that they are being cliches, and I wonder in cliche, 'Would it feel like that? Would I really be so in love with someone that I'll not think of what other people think? Would I really be willing to fight for this person and sacrifice my life for him/her?' (Notice I use both genders with my acceptence of homosexuality. No, not acceptance meaning that I am one. If I liked a female, believe me, those reading would be the first to know.)
I feel that I would give all to the one I love. But who's to know? I may not be able to in the end.
I have never been in love. I'm not even seventeen, for god's sake. I have had crushes though, but those were just a forced kind, I know that now. Yes, forced. When I told my friends I liked that person, it was nothing but a fancy and I think right after I told them, that fancy died down immediately. And, honestly, I think I forced myself to go through all the motions of being a love-sick schoolgirl. Disgusting. I haven't fully crossed that line to adulthood to be able to look back and laugh at such stuff with a free heart. It's terribly embarassing, still. Funny, nonetheless.
But, back to the topic. How will I know when I love somebody? My crushes tugged at my heart. And not those within reach. I tell you, I am a FANGIRL. I love pretty boys. And I ave lots of idols who are almost all my crushes. I feel I love the to death. But that's fanatical. Scary. Considering they don't even know you exist. But, as with al my current fetish, they die out. I am now crazy over Tom Felton. But I know that sooner or later, I'll grow tired of it and I'll just find a new target to be an entire goo over. Only to hop from one to another and come back to him again when I feel like it. But being a fan of him has a great big symptom of being in love. He is on my mind all the time. (Stop thinking this is sick and read my point, will ya?) Does this consider to be love? Are all my crushes love? How would you know, right? How would I?
But I feel, if any one of my crushes had returned my feelings, I think I would have been in love. And I would still be in love if they have continued to love me. Because I know, I am a very practical person. Why should I love that person if he does not love me back? But if he does, and I can feel the same, why not? And I know I would fall. Is it still considered love then? When I put an attachment to it? A condition? Dn't get me?
Let's say I fancy 2 people at the same time. One, more than the other. But the one who I like more holds no great feeling for me, while the one I like less does. I'll go for the one I like less. Because there is a chance. And I do like him. And I can make it grow. But..... would it last? That's another question that bothers me. Because I know that if I were really in that situation, it will proceed like that. Can that kind of love last? I'd like to think it will.
Quote: 'That's what you think.' <Anybody. But I claim a right to it first.>
I have never been in love. I'm not even seventeen, for god's sake. I have had crushes though, but those were just a forced kind, I know that now. Yes, forced. When I told my friends I liked that person, it was nothing but a fancy and I think right after I told them, that fancy died down immediately. And, honestly, I think I forced myself to go through all the motions of being a love-sick schoolgirl. Disgusting. I haven't fully crossed that line to adulthood to be able to look back and laugh at such stuff with a free heart. It's terribly embarassing, still. Funny, nonetheless.
But, back to the topic. How will I know when I love somebody? My crushes tugged at my heart. And not those within reach. I tell you, I am a FANGIRL. I love pretty boys. And I ave lots of idols who are almost all my crushes. I feel I love the to death. But that's fanatical. Scary. Considering they don't even know you exist. But, as with al my current fetish, they die out. I am now crazy over Tom Felton. But I know that sooner or later, I'll grow tired of it and I'll just find a new target to be an entire goo over. Only to hop from one to another and come back to him again when I feel like it. But being a fan of him has a great big symptom of being in love. He is on my mind all the time. (Stop thinking this is sick and read my point, will ya?) Does this consider to be love? Are all my crushes love? How would you know, right? How would I?
But I feel, if any one of my crushes had returned my feelings, I think I would have been in love. And I would still be in love if they have continued to love me. Because I know, I am a very practical person. Why should I love that person if he does not love me back? But if he does, and I can feel the same, why not? And I know I would fall. Is it still considered love then? When I put an attachment to it? A condition? Dn't get me?
Let's say I fancy 2 people at the same time. One, more than the other. But the one who I like more holds no great feeling for me, while the one I like less does. I'll go for the one I like less. Because there is a chance. And I do like him. And I can make it grow. But..... would it last? That's another question that bothers me. Because I know that if I were really in that situation, it will proceed like that. Can that kind of love last? I'd like to think it will.
Quote: 'That's what you think.' <Anybody. But I claim a right to it first.>